Man, does it feel good to be sitting here in my dining room with my computer, writing to you on this lovely but neglected blog of mine.
The reason for today’s blog is… well, nothing really at all.
I suppose I’m writing because I’ve missed this. I’ve missed communicating with my fellow Not So Book Clubbers, and to me that’s reason enough to write. I could spend time apologizing for the lack of updates over the past couple of months and I could blame it on my work schedule, but that’s not really fun to read.
So instead, let’s use this post as a happy holiday card. An end of year celebration! A letter of intention to write more but not a promise (as promises are hard to keep). And an update on where I’ve been and where I’m going.
Back in July (as you may have read), I was hired back by the company that laid me off almost a year prior. I know some people think it was very admirable of me to go back but in reality, it wasn’t. I loved the people I worked with. It was easy to say “yes!” to returning to them. And since then, although it’s been incredibly busy, and at times highly stressful, it’s been rewarding. I laugh everyday at work regardless of what we have on our plates and that is owed to my fantastic co-workers. But with that said, I can’t help but miss that sweet beautiful time of unemployment because of all the free time it gave me.
I’m sure it drives my husband crazy every time I say that, as he was there during said time of unemployment when I kept lamenting the loss of my job and incessantly referred to myself as a “loser” because I couldn’t get back on the work horse easily. But looking back, man was unemployment glorious! Sure, in the beginning I felt as though I was flailing around without a purpose. But then come November, the book club started and I felt a new value in my time.
I devoted every minute of every day to reading, writing, developing this idea, and building a dream. In reality, those 11 months off from full time employment saved me. Prior to the NSBCBC, I had allowed myself to drop all my hobbies. I spent the free time I had watching TV and wasting away on the Internet. And I know I’ve written about that before but I still can’t get over it. What a waste! And even scarier, what an easy habit to fall back into!
Now, although I no longer have the luxury of absorbing myself in all things book club anymore, I realize it’s not an excuse to leave all those practices behind. I know how easy it is to fall back into horrible routines where you work all day and don’t satisfy your soul during your off time. So because I know what it takes for me to find fulfillment and happiness, in 2015 I’ll make it my resolution to try my darndest and fill the free time I have with the activities that made this past year so wonderful: read more, write more, and focus on things that push me forward.
And I recommend that for you as well. Fill the free time you have with activities that give you fulfillment, as opposed to filling your time with things that make you zone out after work. Sure, zoning out is helpful at times, but it doesn’t give your life any forward momentum. And I know, what I’m asking you to do is quite a tall order; find what makes you happy and fulfilled and fill your free moments with that.
Sounds easy enough, right? Well, the reality is that it’s not. But at least I’ll be right here trying to do the same with you.
Have a happy holiday my wonderful Not So Book Club Book Club. Thank you for being the most supportive and wonderful community this year. Lots of love.
P.S. – Your January reads! The reason for me picking all three is that they came highly recommended! I have attached each of their goodreads pages. Read the reviews. See which one is for you! I look forward to chatting with you about them!